Out of contact

I do know I'm a selfish person
Stop and think
We really haven't been in touch for a long time
some could be just few hours
some are days weeks or even years
Being away for a quite a while
I know I've been unconcerned
My ignorance told me you would understand me even if we don't talk
At the same time it told me you wouldn't understand my situation here even if we talked
My self-deceptive mind accepted the excuse that we were all busy
At the same time it couldn't resist the life of indulgence till I forget
We used to be so close
We used to talk about everything
We used to care about each other
Sorry I haven't been doing my part well
to those I've left behind...

YOU.
Thanks to you. It was you that inspired me with this. You made me realised the ugliness of my own for ignoring people and things I used to care so much. It is indeed ruthless to not to care anymore but I did that.

YOU.
Lucky to have you back in my life, though not for long. I can see that you're well taken care of. I regret that your records of me need to be updated. It seems like you're still using the 06/07 version if not 05/06. And I can't blame you for that because supply for the latest version of me is limited and is rather hard to get.

YOU.
You're gone. Back in where you yearned for. 15 years and we still don't know each other. So close yet so far.

YOU.
No idea why, no matter what we still care for each other. It's probably hard to talk since we're both busy but I will try to reach you.

YOU and YOU.
Total loss of contact. Maybe twice a year, your birthday and my birthday. I still wish you well.

YOU.
Relieved. Everything.

YOU.
We're finally in touch in a rather special way after years. I still care about you.

YOU.
I have you almost everyday. But I don't seem to know you, nor do you understand me. We are different, yet we are connected.

YOU+YOU+YOU+YOU.
Love is always there. I just hope you're okay.

YOU.
Wait. Who are you? I never forget you, it's just that I forget to remember you. Give me some time, I'll recall.